ITry

I Try...

I'm sitting here trying to think…
About the happy days we had together
And the memories we once shared

I try to see...
That love look in your hazel eyes
But times blindness is a cruel friend

I try to feel...
But slip into the abyss of endless tears
Where touch binds to sadness and pain

I try to reach...
Into memories pool where they hide
But refuse to surface any longer

I try to know...
That joy again that made me soar
To the tops of clouds and beyond

I try to hold...
Your sweet face in my hands
And remember the feel of your hair

I try to speak...
But your memory refuses to hear
Words echoing off yesterdays canyons

I try to listen...
And hear once more the I love you
That tumbled so sweetly from your lips

I try to think...
About what happened those ten years
That now seem like ten days long

I try to smell...
That scent that was yours alone
The sweet aroma of your musk

I try to taste...
The sea salt behind your ears
As we lay on the beach and kissed

I try to cry...
As the tears well up behind my eyes
Striving to gush forth but unable

I try to find...
That picture of you at the craters edge
That no longer hangs on memories wall

I try to smile...
Like I used to when I thought of you
Muscles now frozen in a perpetual frown

I try to remember....
But nothing is what lays there now
Memory lost to the cruel gods of time

I try...
But I can't